"I'm so creatively right brained... I lean!"

March 5, 2009

A Month of Losses

Seems like I totally missed the month of February. It was filled with deeply painful losses. I'm still in the numb feeling fog of it all, anticipating an eruption of emotion sooner or later.

My mother, artist, author, and artistic mentor, passed away on Feb 7th. She was full of knowledge, my lifelong creative inspiration and teacher. We buried her in a family plot next to my youngest brother on Feb 13th. My last completed project with her was editing and doing the cover art for her book... "I Made God Laugh!" by Nan Hough, published in 2007.

As a result, my middle brother and now only living family member had five gran mal seizures, gashed his head open, had stitches, and spent seven days in the hospital where they kept him heavily sedated for three. He suffered temporary memory loss and had to relive our family deaths over again.

My ex-husband and father of my adult children, passed away on Feb 23rd. His funeral was on the 28th which my 24 year old daughter managed to attend in a wheelchair after having emergency surgery from a ruptured ectopic pregnancy on the 27th.

I lost my mother, ex-husband, and a grandchild. My brother's seizures were the most horrifying experiences of my life. Needless to say, February was not an inspired month ... I created nothing except an obituary and a picture board that held many memories.

"I Made God Laugh!" by Nan Hough is available at: iUniverse.com, Barnes & Noble.com, Books-a-Million.com, Amazon.com, and Borders.com. Book retails for $31.95 + shipping.